Chivs86 Poetry - Tears of a Clown

Chivs86 Poetry - Tears of a Clown Spoken Word Video (click below) https://youtu.be/_8EGVpx6sZs Lyrics As old as laughter. You know who you are.  Not the Ringmaster but the main show - there for making Jokes. Though sad yes it is when all the people go home and the Circus Man is then all alone... The other side what people don't know.. of the Funny Man. All of a sudden he's sad. Has nothing left to do but to practice on his act. He's got nobody and that's a fact. So as he drown in his sorrow thinking roll on tomorrow. When nobody's watching him - out the window. What he really thinks - is somehow he doesn't know is how that an all time high can make him feel so low. ***** The life of the party and soul. Always doing something silly normally at his own... EXPENSE! but why though? Is what he doesn't know. Is how that an all time high can make him feel so low. At the end of the show - Like If only he had a Friend when he went.. Home! Back home! Instead of only being known for his jokes... **** So with his big red nose,and his feet that poke... into his funny shoes ready for his next show. but as he looks back at the unicycle he rode   this funny man really is not in the mood, because under this big brave face this is the truth.. If some people, if they only knew that behind all of this humor this funny man really is not amused. ***** Because how would you like it - if you was the fool and people never stopped laughing. Made to wear make up as a mask - thick enough to hide the pain in your heart.  So next time you laugh - Now understand underneath that it's hard - To be this Star of the Show because everybody on this Earth has a Soul. Even the most funniest of Clowns. They get sad like the rest of us somehow. Though never when in front of his crowd will you ever see the True Tears of a Clown!  *****

Chivs86 Poetry Presents ...

Did (Committed) Multiple Sins.

People keep on telling me
I'm not as old as I think
but for what I've done already
I don't feel 26.

Just ill when I think
about all the things I've did

I've been a criminal,
since the age of 13.

Living as proof
for the stuff I've been through,
which when look back at
Does not amuse!,
because looking at me
is how youngsters shouldn't be
I remember those words my dad said to me..

About honesty!

But are they in vain?
When I've stole cars, and sold cocaine.

Rode on an emotional train WRECK!

and what a hopeless mess that I've made.

Respect for myself has gone down the drain
Doctors keep on telling me
that I've gone in the brain.
Fallen back in to the culture to binge
and I've already did (committed)
Multiple Sins.

Vandalism, and shoplifting
Gifting my kin with Broken promises

with a loss of accomplishment.
like a convict,
because all I have left
is a crisis of conscience.

that keeps falling back in to the culture to binge
and I've already did (committed) Multiple Sins.

An influence on others that they'd rather not get
and now I'm sorry for all the people I've upset.


With my past, a glass full of regrets

& I'm sorry
but I can't change any of it.

Cos I'm a loser that's lost too much now to win

& I've already did committed Multiple Sins.

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Inspiration

I wrote this poem as an assignment for Helium.com but kind of wanted to expose it a little better as this website is very minimal of imagery, and doesn't allow the author to associate there self with readers to a very great extent.

About this poem though - first things first please ignore the picture of the horse.  That is for a comical purposes only, but otherwise I have done a few things I am not proud of.  So this poem is about that  I wrote this piece when I was 26 - I am now 27, and it was really about spending half of my life getting in trouble.  Not much else really.  I got the title 'Multiple Sins' and used that to reflect a little bit about my past.  Some of the trouble I've been in, and that was it. 

Chivs86 Poetry - Pac & Biggie (R.I.P)

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Introduction (Inpiration + Idea) -

My inspiration to write this poem was a recent article I read on Hip Hop DX.  It was an interview with Notorious B.I.G's friend, label mate, and Junior M.A.F.I.A member Lil Cease.  Somebody ever present in the 2pac & Notorious B.I.G rap beef, and basically what he said was that if certain people had just stayed out of it then the two rappers, most likely, would have made up with each other.  Something i believe, and I think if it weren't for certain people encouraging so much negative publicity then things could have been very different between two rappers who today are maybe regarded as two of the best that ever did it.  Two rappers whom will be sorely missed, and basically that's why I wrote this poem.

Source:

http://www.hiphopdx.com/index/news/id.20015/title.lil-cease-says-tupac-and-notorious-big-would-have-ultimately-reconciled

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 Check out the full video here courtsy of This Is 50.com:

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Chivs86 Poetry - Pac & Biggie (R.I.P)

R.I.P.
Both Pac and Big were true thugs.
2 different people
who had a  true love -
for Hip Hop,
because making music was their buzz,
 to get them going.
 Making music was their drug.

So why did -
everyone else just f**k it up?
The same colors -
so why would they both not be brothers?
and Is the industry c**ts or what -
because Hip Hop, 
still wants to hear both BIG and Pac.

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 What a flip flop,
 it has become this Hip Hop,
 Sandals with a C -
 all the Scandals that it's seen -
 Are, making this American dream, a bit lost - 
People been too busy tryna make it what it's not.

Like selling whole potatoes in a chip shop -
unheard of.
They've both died,
but we're still hearing their verses,
but what if that;
both of them had not been murdered ?
'Hit em up' was never made,
and BIG never heard it?

Would we still have all that good stuff to hear -
if the wrong people,
never got in 2pacs ear ?

And would of Nas still have said that Hip Hop Died -
If Cease was right & Pac & Big Reconciled?

Chopped it up after the Source Awards.
Got in the studio -
to record a song.
So imagine it
if today in Hip Hop
They both never got shot
R.I.P Big & Pac.

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Related: Chivs86 Poetry - R.I.P 2pac - Let Him Be.

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Chivs86 Poetry -

Farewell Oh Sheriff..

Befallen,
They chopped it down.
Our Sheriff has now left this town.
Lost his Place...
at The O.T public house,
Where he got rooted
up from the ground.

But is he gone
has he been muted
Is he dead,
Or has he just been moved.

Such an iconic object, a lot to lose

Somebody who quite well

I have knew.

For a long time now

Where has he gone -

the reason behind me writing this song?

The reason why that I'm feeling lost?

And the reason why that I don't know what -

has just happened!

It has but i'm thinking has it -

really disappeared off into the traffic?

The big man that was behind all the magic

for many happy small little kids.

Who down his big slide have slid,

Kept busy while their carers had a drink.

But now that this Tree has seen the door,.

Who wants to drink at the Tree anymore?

Without this big man of the law,

now a big empty space on the Orange Tree lawn.

Did We Kill The Dodo?

Chivz86 Poetry -
Did We Kill The Dodo?

What did we do though
that was so bad?
They say what we did
left the Dodo dead.

When we stole
from the last living Dodo's nest.
Ate the last yolk
from a Dodo's egg.

But, will we see those again?
we don't know yet.

What if we can make the right DNA set?

Well Scientists will.
It will be a safe bet
that one day they will
what more can we expect...

from Bio-tech?
the science that says
we might try again.
To make up
for all of the sins that we did
with a bid
to Resurrect all the dead

And gone of our species,
like all it takes is one mad genius,
to believe in this,
being possible
that one day we might again
see them live.

Life forms that have long been extinct.
because who knows
what our futures will predict?

With great minds
that will only grow more greater with time?
because
we've already sign some encouraging signs.

That we might be
why the Dodo bird died,
but by the way
we're playing god
it might survive

In the same breath
they might as well have never diedin the sense that we just might revive -
them
So they might as well still be aliveIn the sense that if we really tried

then it could be just like
they never left
and we could all try eating Dodo Pie.

So
did the Dodo bird really die?

Ask this again in 20 more years time.

Man Eaters Of The Kumaon.

Chivs86 Poetry -

Man Eaters Of The Kumaon.

Man eaters will plan
to sneak up
from the trees,
hide their face beneath the leaves.
On the hunt,
the plan they keep up their sleeves,
Is to drag their prey
back down into the ravine.

The jungle
where helpless humans
will bleed
as the animals
that lost all fear start to feed.
Which to us we see
as a cause for our grief,
but to them we're seen
as a source of the meat.

That they like to eat,
and the reasons seen
are apparently caused by injuries.
Or deformities
that have made them more weak,
gave them a taste
for us poor human beings.

Who to catch and to kill
seem like are more easy
than the fauna
their normal habitats breeds,

because we're more slow and weak
and too stupid to realize
when we've been seen.

But what does this mean,
that now we are not at the top
of the food chain?

No,
because from the moment
we grew brains
well we've slain a load
to the point that the total
kills have taken their toll,

Drove the man eater away from it's home.

Source:  Man Eaters Of The Kumaon by Jim Corbett

The Tower Of Babel

Chivz86 Poetry -
The Tower of Babel

Angels will fly
& Devils used to
they built up to the skies
past the Moon
with Human tools
on the table
and there was
the Tower of Babel.

Or so the Bible says
that when every man
of earth united
Our God was frightened
and threatened
by the ladder
that led up to the Heavens.

So to make sure it never did
the land that we had where we lived
was separated,
Atlantis sunk
and we learned languages.

We changed in pigment
and in time became all different.
So In the myth that was written
the moral is if every man on earth living -

Lost their hate for the love
It would seal our gates shut
from the great above
because, if Aliens come,
and we couldn't fight
because we put down our guns

Our days on earth would be up
The main reason
why god had the tower crushed.

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